Of the chapters which I’ve read thus far in Reverend Mill’s book, A 30 Day Retreat, this has been my favorite. In it he describes Jesus on the way to Jerusalem, knowing where He is going and what He’s about to do. He is on track and on purpose. His disciples, by contrast, couldn’t be more lost. They don’t get what’s happening, where they’re going or what Jesus is saying and doing. Put in common parlance, Jesus is in the groove and they are out of it.
Where does that leave me?
Am I getting this? Do I know where I’m going?
Do I stay on track keeping my eyes fixed on Jesus, or do I keep letting little unimportant things distract me?
When I catch myself getting off track, what do I do? Do I immediately take corrective action such as prayer and/or confession? Am I willing to admit when I’m wrong, to be humble, and to be last and the least of all?
Do I forgive as I want to be forgiven? Love as He has loved me?
Am I willing to share my faith with those who don’t know about Christ or might need to hear me witness to the Truth?
Do I go daily for spiritual sustenance? Attend Mass as often as I can, pray before the Blessed Sacrament, and say the rosary?
Do I keep studying and trying to learn, understand and grow in the truths of my faith?
Do I accept that being a Catholic Christian isn’t necessarily an easy choice, but it’s my only choice?
Right now dear Lord, help me find that road to Jerusalem with You. That’s where I want to be—the road I want to take. Take my hand. I want to be ‘in the groove’ with You, not wandering lost somewhere. Basically Jesus I’m a coward and sinner, like the rest of your disciples. I probably don’t ‘get’ what is going on any better than they did, but with Your help I want to. Please help me. Hold on to me tight Lord. Keep me with You and don’t let me get in Your way.